Waiting

It's been a lot of years of waiting for my son to fix himself, and some of those years I've asked myself if he ever will.

He stopped by the beginning of the week to get his social security card and that was the last that I've seen or heard from him. Since he doesn't have a cell phone there's no way for me to get in touch with him, so I do what I always do... pray. 

I'm not sure what his "rock bottom" is that everyone says he needs to hit, but I'm praying it happens soon so his lifestyle doesn't become his life. 

So for now it's waiting, praying, and living - what else is there? I can't let his behavior consume my life or steal my joy - there's no guarantees in life, so I have to live and love life to its fullest while I still can.

"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back."

- Unknown

Have an awesome Sunday!