Murraytalk

I started writing again and I'm exhausted! Whenever I write about my life I become physically drained, and now I have a massive headache to top it off. I'm not quite sure why I even attempt to do it, but whenever I pray for direction or ask what I'm suppose to do, book is the message I get. Can't Tyler Perry just meet with me so I can tell him my story - he makes a movie and we all live happily ever after. That way I get it all out and don't have to keep going to that dark place in my life. I sat in a meeting a few weeks ago with a group of drug addicts in treatment listening to their stories, the parents story , the counselor's story. All I kept thinking is I could of been a lot of things with the way my family was, but I chose not to become a drug addict or an alcoholic. I'm not saying I'm perfect - we all have skeletons in our closet, but I made a choice on what direction to go with my life - becoming a drug addict was not on my list or on the lis...

Hospice and Treatment are consuming my mind at the moment. My husband received an email from his sister yesterday saying that hospice would be going to his parents home beginning today for his father. We all knew in our hearts that he wasn't getting better, but Hospice - my husband and I weren't prepared for that - at least I wasn't. My father in law Last night we dropped my daughter off for treatment for a minimum of 28 days. It was one of the most difficult things I have done as a parent. I'm proud of her - I know how hard it was for her to walk in that door and not turn around and walk out. She has struggled for a long time, so this is going to be a good thing for her and everyone involved. As for me, my head is full of mixed emotions - it's just too much. But, I don't let anything keep me down, I can't, or some one would end up having to work hard on getting me to function again... I know that about me. When my mother passed away I told myself I...