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As I was sorting through pictures this morning I came across pictures of my seven-year-old granddaughter with girls that she met for the first time on a 2 day stay in Prescott. I was drawn to the smiles on their faces and the love in their eyes. They met, accepted each other, and acted as if they had been lifelong friends. Oh, how I had forgotten about the innocence of a child. The color of skin, the size of a body, the structure of a face does not matter. They are ready to accept and love unconditionally until we and society teach them differently. There was nothing but smiles and laughter as they danced, made beaded jewelry, and ate. They made sure that they all were a part of whatever they were participating in. They cared about each other's feelings and made sure that everyone was having fun and was happy. Why is it that we grow to become so obsessed with appearance and behavior of others that we miss seeing the light or the struggles in others?  We're so q...

I'm going to vent today. Last night I was on a break talking to a co-worker when I took a look at Facebook for a quick minute. What I was seeing made me think about the people that I have as friends on this social network. First of all let's be honest - most of us are not real friends. I truly have a handful of people that really know me.(family not included) I'm noticing that some that I have accepted as friends aren't really my cup of tea. For example, don't threaten that you're going to delete everyone that doesn't agree with you politically, and I see that I'm still your friend. Now I'm thinking you're a liar. Furthermore, does anyone have their own thoughts anymore? My real friends know that I'm not political - I'm about right and wrong. They also know that I don't agree just to agree - if you're my friend you respect that. I don't believe that it's acceptable to make rude and disparaging remarks about human being...

When I announced a few month ago that I was back blogging - that really was the plan. I planned on blogging three times a week. (Monday, Wednesday, and Friday) Well, it's Thursday and I'm just sitting down in front of my laptop debating if I want to do this at all. I have always been able to share pieces of my life without apprehension, but today I feel torn because of recent circumstances in my life. I decided to go ahead and write because writing makes my soul feel better, and today my soul is hurting. Not sure if there will be more blogs in the future though - I'm taking this one day at a time. I've lost a lot of things over my life time thus far (key word- things) but today unfortunately what I'm losing is people. People that are a huge part of my life and are suppose to stay in my life until the day that I die. The ones that are your cheerleaders, your go to people, the ones that understand and trust you, aka family. Instead, I've become a punching bag...

This week has been a little hectic due to some changes in my life schedule. I've missed a week of seeing and spending time with my family which isn't normal for our family. But on the upside I'm meeting new people which brings me new knowledge, and from that I shall grow, so it's a beautiful thing! Speaking of meeting people and new knowledge, I made some prejudgments this week that I'm not proud of, but I'm human and I make wrong decisions occasionally. This week I met several new people which some I immediately clicked with, and others I sat shaking my head in wonderment because of my first impression of them. Not first impression based on appearance, but first impression based on behavior. As the week continued I was drawn to having a real conversation with each of them because I wanted to understand the behavior that I was questioning. I learned some horrible events that had taken place recently in their life - different stories, but equally sad. I felt...

Late getting to my blog because I went to court to sit on the bench this morning. I have to say I've heard better excuses from my kids. I don't know where these people come up with this stuff. Such as having arthritis in their leg so they couldn't control the speed of the car because their leg wasn't working. Can't pay the ticket because I have brain damage from a head injury, and the number 1 best excuse for me was, the reason I drove past the flashing lights and barricades is because I don't speak English. I don't understand getting out of bed for this... just pay the damn ticket and let everyone go on with their life. Hope you're having a happy Friday...Go shopping for Mom and make it an awesome day!

I'm always about positive and inspirational quotes and sayings, but it's Friday and I'm feeling more like something to smile or laugh at. So here's a few quotes that I hope will make you smile.  Happy Friday!

Okay, now that I'm finished sharing with you all the information on the event, let me blog about me. I have always been opposed to people wearing pajamas out in public if they're over the age of 5... not pretty, not a fashion statement. But, last night as I was ready for bed, and not looking pretty by the way. I had an old peace t-shirt on from when I had my boutique, and pajama bottoms that are about 6 years old. As I said, not pretty, but I was comfy. Anyway, my phone rings and it's my 21 year old son wanting me to pick him up. I debated if I should get dressed, but against my better judgement I threw on a hat, sweater and slippers. I figured, who's going to see me. That's where I went wrong. My car was beyond empty so I knew I was going to have to stop. I'm looking at every gas station that I pass in hopes that there's one with no people at the pumps before I run out of gas. Finally, I find a Circle K with people in the store, but no one at the gas pump...

I Believe... Two people can look at the exact same  Thing and see something totally different.  I Believe.. That your life can be changed  in a matter of hours  by people who don't even know you.  I Believe.. That even when you think  you have no more to give,  When a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.  I Believe.. That credentials on the wall  do not make you a decent human being.  I Believe... That the people you care about  most in life are taken from you too soon.  The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything;  They just make the most of everything they have. Finally we come to an end of the I Believe quotes. Thank you to my neighbor Sue for emailing it to me.  Happy Monday!

I Believe.. That either you control your attitude or it controls you. I Believe... That heroes are the people who do what has to be done. I Believe.... That my best friend and I  can do anything or nothing and have the best time.. I Believe.. That sometimes when I'm angry  I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel. Happy Saturday... make it an awesome one!

I decided I'm going to talk and share my life on living with someone with addiction. I hope that through this process someone will get hope, regain faith, get strength, succeed on beating this terrible demon that's taking people away too soon. This is Episode 1.

I'm torn on what I want to talk about this morning since I have a few things on my mind. But what I'm thinking about at this moment is my son moving back to Phoenix over the weekend. If you have read some of my previous blogs you know that my son's biological mother did drugs during her pregnancy and my son was born drug addicted. It has been a roller coaster ride for all involved for many years now. On January 1st he moved to Tucson so I thought maybe he had finally hit rock bottom, had an epiphany, or maybe he had just had enough. All that mattered was that he had removed himself from a toxic environment and was going to change. Although his initial intention may have been to get it all together, something changed. Unfortunately, that means it has changed for each of us. The lies, items getting stolen from the house, mood swings, no job or motivation to get one, and broken promise after broken promise. Every drug addict or alcoholic that I know all have the same stori...