Murraytalk

I shared with you how I had my son leave my home because he's not in a good place right now.  Yesterday he was sitting outside my home when I pulled up.  I asked him why he was here - Don't get me wrong, I'm thankful he's okay but I can't be an enabler.                                                                               He had a couple of reasons why he popped in, but I know the real one is that he thought no one would be home and he was hoping he could get in to eat, crash, and find something to sell at a pawn shop. As horrible as that sounds it's the reality of how a drug addict operates.                                                     ...

No one knows but you when you've had enough, and I have had enough. I knew at some point yesterday was going to turn out to be explosive because I know the pattern of an addict - at least this one.  Truthfully I was silently praying that he didn't come home for a few days or weeks because living like a prisoner in your home gets old, and it's just not fair. I don't deserve the things that he does or the words that he screams - none of us do. I was on the phone when he started and I kept signaling like you do to toddlers to be quiet when you're on the phone, but he got louder and then the front door is being slammed, my garage door being punched and him outside screaming like a crazy person. The evening ended with a broken front door, me wanting to do bodily damage to him, and us calling the police. I hate all of it! I'm done, and to most of you that sounds like I'm a horrible person, but I won't live like this anymore.  His bir...