Murraytalk

No one knows but you when you've had enough, and I have had enough. I knew at some point yesterday was going to turn out to be explosive because I know the pattern of an addict - at least this one.  Truthfully I was silently praying that he didn't come home for a few days or weeks because living like a prisoner in your home gets old, and it's just not fair. I don't deserve the things that he does or the words that he screams - none of us do. I was on the phone when he started and I kept signaling like you do to toddlers to be quiet when you're on the phone, but he got louder and then the front door is being slammed, my garage door being punched and him outside screaming like a crazy person. The evening ended with a broken front door, me wanting to do bodily damage to him, and us calling the police. I hate all of it! I'm done, and to most of you that sounds like I'm a horrible person, but I won't live like this anymore.  His bir...

The Jersey Shore is phasing out stars is what I just read. I'm not a fan of the reality show, but I've tuned in here and there, and I actually watched the reunion show the other night. According to TMZ  Nicole "Snooki" Polizzi and Mike "The Situation" Sorrentino are the ones being phased out due to Snooki's pregnancy and The Situation's current rehab situation. At the end of this article there's a poll asking should a pregnant woman and a recovering addict be a part of what they called "the alcohol- heavy" reality show. I'm a little confused with that question, but haven't watched it enough to witness how much alcohol is involved. But, she isn't the first unwed pregnant girl on a reality show... remember Kourtney Kardashian is pregnant with baby #2 and still not married. And as for The Situation, also not the first to have a stint with rehab. I think it might be nice to see Snooki pregnant and living life differently, and ...

I'm torn on what I want to talk about this morning since I have a few things on my mind. But what I'm thinking about at this moment is my son moving back to Phoenix over the weekend. If you have read some of my previous blogs you know that my son's biological mother did drugs during her pregnancy and my son was born drug addicted. It has been a roller coaster ride for all involved for many years now. On January 1st he moved to Tucson so I thought maybe he had finally hit rock bottom, had an epiphany, or maybe he had just had enough. All that mattered was that he had removed himself from a toxic environment and was going to change. Although his initial intention may have been to get it all together, something changed. Unfortunately, that means it has changed for each of us. The lies, items getting stolen from the house, mood swings, no job or motivation to get one, and broken promise after broken promise. Every drug addict or alcoholic that I know all have the same stori...